haunted...i practically didn't get any sleep last night even though i was dead tired. i must have woke up at least 20 times... and each time with a past memory lingering in my mind. it comes unbidden like a ghost, invading my thoughts and stealing the peace. will i never be free? do i really need to just get into some random relationship, however meaningless, just to erase the past?
i hate to lose you as a close friend... someone i can really talk to and count on.
but i can't trust you again... not now
maybe never
